Jan. 20, 2017, was a normal morning for Greg Johnson, the principal of West Liberty-Salem High School, an hour outside of Columbus, Ohio, when he heard the news no school leader ever wants to hear: There had been a shooting on campus.
Flanked by assistant principal Andy McGill, Johnson rushed toward the restroom, where he saw a backpack and a few shell casings on the floor. They heard two students talking鈥攐ne of them was trying to convince the other not to shoot again because he hadn鈥檛 killed anybody yet. When they entered the restroom, they saw that Logan Cole, a junior, had been shot twice at close range and already sustained serious injuries.
鈥淚 knew then that everything had changed,鈥� Johnson said in an interview with 91制片厂视频 Week. (Watch the interview above.)
Together, Johnson, McGill, and Cole were able to convince the shooter to put down his weapon. A more tragic outcome had been averted, but over the course of the next few months, Johnson said he had to contend with the 鈥渨hat ifs.鈥�
鈥淚 didn鈥檛 regret going in there [to face the shooter],鈥� he said. 鈥淏ut I had to grapple with, what if that situation had ended differently for my school, and for my family?鈥�
Johnson spoke with 91制片厂视频 Week about how his leadership journey changed after the shooting. It made him reflect on how his vulnerability could have a positive, trickle-down effect: If teachers and students saw that he, too, was struggling, they鈥檇 be more open about their own challenges dealing with the shooting鈥檚 aftermath.
Other things changed, too鈥攖wo years ago, his eldest daughter Addie married Cole, the student survivor. This links Johnson inextricably with that day in 2017, but for him, it also reinforces the positives that came out of a tragic situation.
This is Johnson鈥檚 story about repair and forgiveness, in his own words. The account has been edited for clarity and length.
Recognizing trauma
I completely underestimated the traumatic effect that the shooting had on our students and community. Part of the reason was the way the day started and ended. It could have ended a lot worse. Parents were really grateful about the way the school intervened.
Logan and his family, in the aftermath, modeled for our whole community how important forgiveness is. When someone from our community started a GoFundMe page for the Cole family, [the family] wanted to make sure that a third of what was raised went to supporting a college fund for the shooter鈥檚 younger sister.
We experienced what I would call a 鈥渉oneymoon period鈥� afterwards. The first day that our kids came back, other schools had sent pictures and banners that lined the halls so our students were surrounded by love and support. For the first several months what you saw at school was very positive.
Gradually, I started to find that a lot of kids were putting on that positive face because that鈥檚 what they were seeing at school, and they wanted to reflect what everybody else was showing them. At home, they were having nightmares. The kids were struggling but thought it was just them that wasn鈥檛 doing well.
I was guilty of exacerbating this. You praise their grit, you praise that toughness, you praise the students for being able to come back into the building. You unintentionally tell students that if you are struggling, that鈥檚 a sign of weakness.
A month after the incident, more and more students started coming into the counselor鈥檚 office to talk. As a school, we then became more intentional about finding out who needed help. We screened students who鈥檇 experienced trauma to see how they鈥檙e dealing with it. Everybody is going to experience trauma in their own way. But if somebody is experiencing the effects of a traumatic event, and they鈥檙e not talking about it, they鈥檙e not getting the attention they need.
We were intentional about bringing fun back to the building. We didn鈥檛 want our identity to be that school where a shooting happened.
When I spoke to my daughter Addie, who was a student at school when the shooting happened, I understood that what the kids went through was different. For me, I was told there was a shooting. I saw an injured student, and almost immediately, the shooter put the gun on the floor and pushed it across to us. In that sense, the event was over.
But our students, some of whom had evacuated through windows, spent 30 to 40 minutes running across muddy fields in the middle of January, and hid in nearby farmhouses because they didn鈥檛 know where the shooter was. In their minds, their friends, their teachers, their principal were dead. It was good news that no one died, but it doesn鈥檛 undo what you went through, what your brain experienced. It impacts you forever.
When I spoke to students after they came back from the summer, the new school year seemed even harder. Some of that positive stuff that we saw after the incident, people making a big deal to show how much they care, rightfully disappeared. So when they came back in the fall, they thought, 鈥淭hings have gone back to normal, but I don鈥檛 feel normal inside.鈥� They couldn鈥檛 understand why it was hard for them.
As administrators, we were intentional about bringing fun back to the building. We didn鈥檛 want our identity to be that school where a shooting happened. There is a lot of caring and compassion, but we wanted to make school fun, and make students remember what life was like before the shooting.
Going to therapy
It was just past the one-year anniversary when I realized something had changed in me, too. We were in a staff meeting and somebody asked how I was doing. I told them, 鈥淚 don鈥檛 think I鈥檓 quite back to where I was, but I think I鈥檓 doing OK.鈥�
I had taken a lot of the burden on my own shoulders. Anytime I saw a kid or a teacher who was struggling, I feel I didn鈥檛 do what I needed to do for them. That鈥檚 when one of the counselors said, 鈥淕reg, you鈥檙e not the principal you used to be, and we need that principal back again.鈥� That was a wakeup call.
I started seeing a counselor, and the one thing that we worked through early on was dealing with the situation emotionally. She asked me, 鈥淒id you cry? Did you grieve?鈥� The way I operate is that when presented with a situation, I rationalize it. Here鈥檚 what happened, here鈥檚 what we need to do next. Trying to work through some of the emotions of that day was helpful.
The school also needed to see that I'm a human, that there are things that I struggle with.
I worked through things like guilt. We had one staff member who was in a room for two hours after the shooting. He was missed, and I didn鈥檛 realize that he was still in hiding. There was a lot of guilt that I didn鈥檛 go check on my kids. My wife was a 4th grade teacher in the building. All three of our children were in the building. I knew my son, in 7th grade then, was OK and in the gym. There was some guilt there, because I think he dealt with a lot of fear as the shooting was going on, knowing that I鈥檓 probably headed in that direction.
I鈥檝e been working on my doctorate lately, and one of the topics that I鈥檝e studied is post-traumatic growth. What I鈥檝e learned from that is that nobody wants to say something good came out of a school shooting. Of course, if we could go back in time and prevent it from happening, we would. But I did grow as a person from that experience. I think I鈥檓 a better principal now. I鈥檓 more sensitive, more aware and quicker to reach out to others. I鈥檓 more willing to be vulnerable.
When it first happened, I thought the school needs to see a strong, consistent, positive strength from their principal, and that鈥檚 what I tried to show. But the school also needed to see that I鈥檓 a human, that there are things that I struggle with, and that鈥檚 that vulnerability piece.
The kids are all right
I鈥檝e been surprised. A number of middle and high school students from the time of the incident have decided to go into education. A part of me was concerned it would turn them away. Addie got hired as a speech therapist in a school. Our son is majoring in education at Ohio State this year.
A number of students from that time were also married within three to four years of graduating. There鈥檚 always a concern after such incidents that students will increase their risky behaviors. But I guess they took stock of what鈥檚 important to them when they realized that life can be short.
I do know it鈥檚 when another event happens that things are bad. When there鈥檚 a shooting, it takes you back. Some of our students reach out to each when there is another shooting, or as Jan. 20 approaches.
